Summer Internship

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I want to get an internship next year preferably in London, Paris or Rome. However, it will be very competitive, I assume and getting a work permit or student visa in these places will definitely require a lot of work, not to mention having to move to a new country again for about 2-3 months.

Therefore, I am open to options in New York, LA, Miami, Las Vegas, Hawaii and possibly other places as well. 

Although I am an Economics major and my plan has always been to become an Economist ever since I decided on this major, I am going to be open to other options that may not have much relation to Economics. After all, I am also planning to double minor in Computer Science and Business.

I was inspired to look for options outside of what Economics majors usually do when when I was watching this video on CNN about Sara Blakely, the woman who went into business to establish the company now known as “Spanx” after failing law school. It taught me that I should never let failure stop me and to always be open to new options in life.

 

Sincerely,

MTYTYA

New at Work

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I’m at work and I’m blogging. Yes, what a crime!

I keep checking my back because I am paranoid that I’ll get caught.

I will be working for my uncle for 2 months doing random jobs. It’s a good experience.

I used to get worried if I didn’t make friends immediately in a new environment. How silly. Everything in life takes time.

When I was new in boarding school, I usually rejected invitations from my roommate and bathroom mates to hang out. Bad move! I never got close to them and I ended up feeling left out. I also tried really hard to talk a lot to everyone and not to act like a newbie  but I just came off as arrogant.

When I finally went to college, I had learnt my lesson. I just sat back in the beginning and everyone thought that I was super sweet and nice. I also tried to accept as many invitations to hang out as I could. In the end, making friends was easy as pie.

Sincerely,

Mtytya

Fear

Sometimes I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear
And I can’t help but ask myself how much I’ll let the fear take the wheel and steer
It’s driven me before, it seems to have a vague
Haunting mass appeal
Lately I’m beginning to find that I should be the one behind the wheel

The excerpt is from a song I really like called “Drive” by Incubus.

 

Never let fear hold you back or you will begin find yourself wanting.

Guys

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I must admit, I was pretty jealous of my future roommate when were initially becoming close.

During the first few months in college, I was very skinny, which was perfectly normal in the country I grew up in but in this new place, so many people were calling me a stick. I also noticed that this friend who is curvy, was getting way more attention from guys than me, especially at parties. I am usually very self assured, but I felt insecure. I was not getting as much attention from guys as I was used to getting back home. It was disappointing.

I gave in to peer pressure and gained weight and worked out more. I also started to overcome my shyness from being in a new country and things started to go uphill.

I am starting to regain my confidence and I am excited for my second year in college.

Honestly though, I really want an older man, not a college boy.

Sincerely,

Mtytya

Carry On

Though I’ve never been through hell like that
I’ve closed enough windows to know you can never look back
If you’re lost and alone
Or you’re sinking like a stone
Carry on
May the past be the sound
Of your feet upon the ground
Carry on

Excerpt from the song “Carry On’ by the band “Fun”.

No matter how hard it is to let go of your past, you must and never look back.

Dear Mother

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Today, I heard my mum shouting at my uncle, complaining about how my grandmother and everyone else in the family doesn’t appreciate what she has done for my grandmother, but instead stabs her in the back.

I think that my mother’s feelings are legitimate to an extent but she too often thinks that everyone is always attacking or bullying her. She is a very sensitive person with a rather short temper and she tends to over think things.

I am sometimes embarrassed by how carelessly she reacts in many situations and when she tries to back down, I find that a lot of times she wounds up acting like a child. My mother herself is aware of the fact that she is not very mature.

She has a very kind heart but is misguided in so many ways. She also feels lonely a lot of times and I want to make her feel better by offering to have her stay with me when I start working. Unfortunately, the thought of living with her frightens me because I fear that I will forever loose the peace that I found living away from home once I invite her into my own home.

She blames her past experiences for the way she acts.

All these things trouble me very much.

Sincerely,

Mtytya